Brand New Year 2009

Maal Hijrah to all muslims and Happy New Year to all.

Insya Allah, 2009 will offer more good tidings and blessings for myself and husband, my family and loved ones.

One Big Obstacle I Had 2 Faced In 2005 That Made Me A Stronger Person

I had this one very disturbed, emotional roller-coaster, self-praised and proclaimed religious ex-colleague by the name intial of NMbMI. I found one of those 'psychotic expressed' emails in my old inbox. Read on..and tell me wat u think after that..
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"Confide in my son about my workplace. How people ostracize his mother....

Norazlina, as for being an Executive Officer. Only those with degrees hold such job title. For "N", 'O', Diploma Holder WE are still EA grade 1,2,3,4 or 5. Executive title was given to EA such as diploma holders and years of service. I would like to reiterate that educational level alone doesn't make you a better person than an EA who has serve years in YM. You should acknowledge them for their capabilities, endurance, perseverance, dedication, resilience, experience, tolerance not EDUCATIONAL LEVEL alone.

My apologies if you find my email direct. I had tolerated such talks far too long. You know that I don't like to be a hypocrite. If you regard me as friend please give a thought or two on the above. Macam mana pandai pun kita ALLAH tarik satu urat kita and that's the end of us.

My moral have been very low for the longest time. I ve been looking for job but unsuccessful. Now I know why drug addicts can't change. Yes, my emotions and outburst are my setbacks.................but have anybody ever wonder why?"

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This looney fellow was always unhappy. ALWAYS UNHAPPY. Dunno why.. Suka nak bersyarahan tapi diri sendiri tak de control. Mulut tak control, perangai tak control, gerak geri mata dia pun tak di control. Munafik kan tu namanya. Hmm.. we all know that she had series of abusive experience from her late dad and ex-hubby. Not that we are kpo and tanya BUT she herself yang bilang. Dunno for what also..Anyway, Too bad la.. tat's just her life. But hey but not everyone's life is as rosy either ok.. And just because she has some insecurity issues, unhappy marital in the past, low morale (i didnt say so.. she said it herself in her email ah) doesnt mean other ppl's happy life ought to be shortlived or destroyed too like hers. And certainly we dun need ppl like her around if she was to only create unhappiness and 4ever instigating fights. Macam mana nak tolong masyarakat kalau diri sendiri tak ter-urus.

She was pissed and hated the way I carry myself confidently at work. I live by the principle of "Never say Die" and by my corporate's mission .. always working towards forefront of excellence. She wasnt happy with that attitude i have.. So wat.. as if i care.. Not my problem anyway if u hve issues with that. You either join me or be what you are now still in the years to come.

She labeled me b4 directly at my face saying back in 2005 "You dah lupa darjat ke.. U are just an EA. U do not have a degree" i retorted saying "I have goals and aims.. I tell myself I am in an organisation that believes in excellence, so to help others towards excellence, I have to upgrade myself first... I have to achieve higher.. I wanna make sure that happen and with God's will, I believe it WILL HAPPEN".

Apparently, my reply got her pissed too.. sigh.. (anyway once again.. not my problem).

Thanks to that desire to move higher and achieve better, I hve successfully attained my long awaited Bachelor Honors in Mass Communications. Graduated with First Class Honours lagi... SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH kepada Allah swt, family members, close friends, Mentors and especially my hubby for that success. Couldnt have done it without their support and doas. And my aim to be an EO in my organization, tercapai pun. Many of those fellow EAs who had gotten her darn email came and told me personally to call her and then tell her of my success. Hmm.. tak payah la kakak-kakak sekalian.. Biar dia dengar or check sendiri. I noe she has some frens still in YM and i am sure they must have told her.. Oh well.. tak kuasa i...

Hmm... where ever you are NMbMI, may GOD forgive you and your sins for making my mentor's and my life a hell in 2005. Allah maha besar... and he knows what is best for individuals... not you.

Hmm... and guess what, my next aim is to start MBA in 2009.

Missing Missing Missing .....

I was reading Dorcus' blog when I suddenly have the urge to wanna update my blog with pictures taken in Liverpool last year... So there I was, updating them one by one while chatting with Leny & Sarah who happened to be online as well.

Spoken to many ex LJMU mates even from malaysia like LeeLian and she too mentioned she misses UK. Haiz... i guess it is just those time when we are hit by the blues.. hehehe....

My Partners In Crime.... many crimes.. heheh

I don't drink alcohol. Just need pure Apple Juice & I am drunk enuff.. Ooops I am 'tispy' ..heheh

Leny's Birthday Kidnapped! (berat jugak ini anak!)

Jennifer & I while Dorcus & Balee .. walking by the clubs & pubs.

The crazy things we do for fun... I bet Mr Henry Cotton enjoyed that moment with us..

One Night In The Park After a Movie

Doing the YMCA

FRIENDS... Neh... there ARE my extended family.

Doing what we do best...

Ms "mual nggak kalian?"

A few more fond memories of June to Sept 2007

Just outside Uni's main door..


LJMU compound. Where we all would be caught by Lord Baldemort loitering when it's high time to go to class... hahah


Aldham Robarts LJMU Library. I know this sounds like only a nerd would say but truly, I love this place...


Chill and R&R after lecture once again...


With a new found summer fling.. hahaha


Enjoying a street performance by those two seen behind and making random friends here.


R&R by Anglican Cathedral after lecture.


Posing beside a catchy board beside NANDOS.. Hell yeah, i missed that restaurant.


After Orientation Day by LJMU in a hotel in the City.

Walking down Memory Lane...

Great Crosshall Street.... Here lies our great MaryBone Project aparments....and many fond memories.


ODEON Cineplex
The place where I get my dosages of entertainment when I faced blues or boredom.


At LFC boutique in the city


Liverpool Football Club.
I am here with Leny.


Colorful people on the streets of Liverpool.


The bombed church I'll walked past everyday to school.


Liverpool City
Missing every bit of this place...


"Hello there.. to LJMU please.. near the Anglican Cathedral.."


"Hello there.. you've got any change?" from the HomeLess.


Albert Dock
What I could remember about this place was....constructions and constructions everywhere. Also, freaking coooooooold .. burrr there... hehehe.

God why is it so difficult ?

GOD, all I ever hope & pray for to you is blessing me with a new break
GOD, Why is it so difficult .....
Its miserable and still is miserable GOD..

My tiny prayers such as getting your assistance to get me a taxi
Getting a parking lot without having to wait or search for more than 8 minutes
They were all answered. Answered fast.
Most times, faster than I could even complete repeating the prayers for the third time. But, GOD why not this one?

GOD, neither Hasan nor my parents understand how I feel.
GOD, neither my colleagues nor my good mates feel the misery.
My spirit has began to dampen...
My zest has began to decline.....
GOD.... I seek peace ONLY with you.

The game of pretence is so great in there.
Should I be in ... or Should I be out...
GOD, that someone I seek solace with.. IS in that game.
Sounds of Alternate+Tabs hiding the many non-related-work screens
Then comes dozing off in-between , hidden behind the walls and chasis.

The "I am busy", "I can't breathe" & "I got so much things" ..
GOD knows they are abso-fucking-lutely lies...
I sure can play the game guys.. just as well as yours.
And pretending to believe that all hearts are united and dedicated...
Abso-fucking-lutely lies.

I want it out GOD !
I want to live! With sincere zests and positivity....
GOD the almighty, nothing goes amiss from your eyes
GOD, I beg you for mercy ....
Spare me from the misery and bless me with IT.

GOD, my apologies for sounding as though I am not thankful.
I am, Truly. You know that cause nothing can be hidden from you. Nothing.

GOD, I will be patient and yes, will continue to pray.
GOD, I will continue to hope and await fondly for THAT day.

That day that would craft a smile to my face.
That day that would made me say 'YES!"
That day that would spell h-a-p-p-i-n-e-s-s.
That day ... that day.....
I believe and feel, is reaching me slowly,
Insya Allah, then nothing can be in my way.


AMEEN,,,